In February of this year I lost 15lbs. I got on the scale this morning; I have gained almost 10 of those pounds back! I’m livid, furious, and extremely discouraged! But continuing to allow myself to feel these things is not going to make me feel any better. So I’m stepping away, and I’m going to try to find some type of positive resolution to this situation.
First thing had to do was figure out my “Why?”. What is the reason for my weight loss? How is weight loss going to benefit me? Well my “Why?” is because I have Congestive Heart Failure and Acute Obstructive Sleep Apnea. My heart is struggling to function along with my Pacemaker, and all this added weight is not helping at all. The Sleep Apnea is affecting how I breathe while sleeping. Again, I need this weight off of me if I’m going to improve any of my health situations. This reason alone ties along with my next “Why?”. My two handsome boys! They need me to be healthy and whole. My mind needs to be right, my emotions need to be right, and so does my health.
The next thing I have done is evaluate my behaviors and eating patterns. It’s funny but I started a Bujo (bullet journal) this month. One of the sections in it is Health and Fitness. Every day for the past two weeks I’ve been writing in it about what I’ve eaten and drank for the day. One thing I noticed is that I don’t ever eat breakfast. My first meal is always around 11am or close to 12pm. I’m always eating something that I have to cook for someone else. It’s not always something that I want to eat or should eat. My water intake is good. Every now and then I have a soda. A lot of times I know I eat like this, because things are tight for me monetary wise. I no longer get child support. So I have no residual coming in. Another reason is just plain absence of willpower.
After that evaluation I made a grocery list. Once I was finished with that, I scratched out all the items that I knew I shouldn’t be consuming. Then I started making recipes that I could do as Meal Preps. I would like to start off doing breakfast and lunch. It’s suggested to try not to do all of them at once. Do one or two and make a habit out of it. So I’m going to try and incorporate that on August 1st. I’ll make sure I give you guys an update on that!
The next thing I did was made a space for my workout routines. I started meditating a month ago, and for about the past week I’ve been doing Yoga. I love doing both! I didn’t realize how much sweat I would work up by doing Yoga, but I’m going to hang in with it. Anyways, back on topic here nah! I made a space for my Yoga Mat and my Rubber band that I’ve started using. I created a nice workout routine and along with that a few Workout Playlists.
I believe my biggest downfall is understanding that not all things happen overnight. They say it takes four weeks for you to notice any type of change in your body. I have to weigh everyday because of the Heart Failure to make sure I am not taking on any excess fluid(not a good thing). So it’s hard to do that and NOT think of weight loss. I have a Vision Board that I’ve just made that includes inspirational themes on weight loss. I love looking at it, and it gives me that extra push. No it’s not pictures of half naked women with no weight whatsoever! It’s more words and statements.
I’ve got to get this weight back off of me! I know I can do it, because I’ve done it before. I just need to have faith and some patience to see it through! Have any suggestions? Have a witness to what has worked for you? Leave it in the comments for me!
Remember to Stay POSITIVE, Stay MOTIVATED, and Be BLESSED!